That's right. There are just 5 measly days until my due date (12/3). I don't know if I'm going to make it and if I do make it to the end, I have no idea how I'm going to push it out. And if by some miracle I do push it out, I will have no idea how to take care of it. I am very anxiety ridden. I am looking forward to meeting my baby, but apprehensive about being a parent. I guess the first part is actually going into labor, but since that hasn't started yet I guess I'm not too worried. If my water breaks or I start seeing blood I'm going to freak right out. I have another doctors appointment on Monday. I am pretty sure he will be giving me another internal, but if I am 0cm dilated again, I don't know what will happen.
I feel like a walking time bomb. Look out!!! My water could break at any minute. Watch out!!! Contractions can start at any time. To make matters worse, I feel a cold coming on. My throat has been sore since last night and I didn't get much sleep because of it. Not as if I have been sleeping good anyway, but this is making things 10 times worse. My nose is also stuffed up, so I have to breath through my mouth and end up drooling all over myself. Then when I wake up, not only am soaked w/ sweat, but I'm also covered in drool as well. I know this is probably all TMI, but I can't help it.
Things at home are improving. The babies room is mostly done, there are just a few last minute things that need to be accomplished (i.e. hanging curtains and whatnot). The living room is much more empty than the picture I posted in a previous entry, however there are still a few select things that are in the living room. Mainly, 2 play tables, a swing, a toddler potty, and a playpen all still in their original boxes. We are not assembling these items right now because the baby is too small, and if we did assemble them there would be no room for the Xmas Tree.
O Xmas Tree….O Xmas Tree. When will I have time to put up thee? Will I have room to put up thee? Will have I have time to take down thee? Should I even bother? I cannot celebrate Xmas without putting up a tree. UGH. I'm under stress!!! And I'm not even a parent yet.